always on time...

I ran across this journal entry I wrote on August 30, 2007... I'm not sure I ever posted it anywhere.  Hope you enjoy it!

if you were at all like me when you were small, there were moments when it felt like time just crawled by. especially looking forward to Christmas, the moments seemed like individual eternities. and as I grew, the truth was that my parents were right all along... time passes so quickly, it seems a blur.
I heard an illustration once of a grandfather taking his grandson out to a hillside on his fifth birthday, and teaching him how to snap his fingers. he then said, snap on this day... and one year from now, come back to this same place and snap again. that little boy did so, and each year thereafter. the grandson found out what the grandfather already knew... that each snap seemed only moments apart. as the saying goes, ‘time flies when you are having fun’... but I would contest that time flies either way...
maybe that is how God chose to relate to us in his word that a day to him is as a thousand years. he is not bound by time, or measured by it. he gave us the seasons of the year so that we can understand and observe the passing of time, but he does not need the seasons for his own benefit.
I remember thinking from my wise kindergarten vantage point ‘I can’t wait until I’m in first grade.’ then in first grade, ‘I can’t wait until I’m in second.’ then from elementary school to middle school, then middle school to high school, then high school to college, then college to graduate school, then graduate school to... well, I think that’s enough school. however, there are definitely seasons where I am in school again, but this time the school of life. I have referred to this ‘school of life’ as I teach a studio of now twelve students, the principles of violin... and life. in my opinion the two go hand in hand. I introduce a piece of music, demonstrate how it is to be played, and entrust the notes to the hands of a violinist in training. the first attempts may be weak, but if the student is persistent, they will push through the obstacles and perform with excellence on the other side. it takes much repetition and a reforming of daily habits in order to master the new concepts and improve the foundation.
now for me, the school of life consists of what God is teaching me... usually along the lines of patience, contentment and trusting his purpose for me. I often wonder, when is graduation? when will I be ready perform this music on the stage so I can go on to the next piece of music? but the length of the semester is not measured in the time as we count minutes, hours, days, months and years. I heard it explained once that God measures time in ‘lessons learned and tests passed.’ so I sigh... and get my violin out once again and do my best to play the notes right so he can make the music with my life that he has orchestrated. he has shown me that the song is already in my heart, and there is so much more music to come...
and so I recall the words of Galatians 6.9: ‘and let [me] not grow weary of doing good, for in due season [I] will reap, if [I] do not give up.’ and psalm 145.15-16: ‘the eyes of all [including me] look to you, and you give them their food in due season. you open your hand; you satisfy the desire of every living thing.’ and meanwhile, ‘I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living! wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!’ and remember...God may never be early, but he is never late...

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